Almost all the snow was gone and now it is back again. GRRRRRRRRRR...

There goes the neighborhood...

By that I mean we will prolly get fined again for not shoveling our sidewalk... hahahahaha

Got a new zune in the mail today! Putting music on it now as we speak. ROCK! Ugh. I have homework to potentially do and a test to study for. That I should really buckle down on because it is happening tomorrow.

Went out with Jeff the day before vd day... that was very nice. We went out for dinner and then watched a movie at his place. I like him a lot and am glad to be with him.

ON Valentine's I spend the day sitting around doing mostly nothing. and it was awesome!!! Then I got ready to go on a hot date with Ashley to have dinner and to go see refer madness. Sarah was there too which is cool because I haven't seen her in awhile and ashley's friend shannon. She is fun!

Let's just say that date was super hot.

Reefer madness was really funny and done very well. Yay eastern's drama department.

OK. That is pretty much it.

Seee ya!

Today at work I really have nothing to do. For once I did some homework in advance and therefore don't have to anything in a rush.

Things are... progressing. It is finally getting warmer out and if it doesn't stay this way I may have to barricade myself in my room. I am serious. I have never hated winter so much, not entirely sure why but it is the truth. One of those big T truths that you don't hear about to often...

I have been ok. Trying to get through the semester.

I need to look for a job.

I lack motivation.
 
I started seeing someone named Jeff. It has been around 2 weeks. Still going strong. hahahaha. I really like him.

Been seeing a lot of Amanda lately. Well as much as we can, and I like it.

I miss Erica.

Try not to break down in front of people because that is awkward.

I am glad this is my last semester. But I am afraid I won't get a job.

Or get into Ph.D programs next year.

Must use ALL summer to study for GRE. If I am not studying... HIT ME...

OK. That is it!

Do I have something on my head that says: "Lie to me" because it has happened a little toooo often I am just don't get it.

Sometimes when I write I don't know which version of too-to to use, so I just put a bunch of o's and hope for the best.

So anywhoooo, I don't get why people even bother sparing feelings. When you know the then publicly denounce the lie and make you feel worse.

But I think I wouldn't care so much if it weren't for the fact that I am already just unhappy and upset. Like it just fueled an already unhappy fire. Which isn't his fault but I mean COME ON. I am not 5 years old I can handle the truth.

Anyway.

Today was rough. I mean I was trying really hard to be all happy and shit. But I am not. Erica's death is really shaking my core and I have already cried once at work. This sucks so much and I just don't know what to do to be happy. I miss her and blah it sucks.

I mean I get that everyone dies and that is just the natural order, but it was just so soon. I am trying really hard not to hibernate, but I would really like nothing more. 

Ok, this is just making me more upset then helping. Today was a bad day to get awkward news. Fuck you facebook.

Finished my take home finals on Sunday. Turned them in yesterday. Treated myself to Corner! Hahahahaha...

Today I will be at work all day which means I am going to watch TV online. WEEEEEEE!

I am very happy to be done!

Also can't wait for the party, it seems like it is going to be quite the flashback from high school, that is if everyone comes! Either way it should be a real grand ol' time.

Ok that is pretty much it. WOO!

Not counting any tests. I have one of them done. hahahahaha...

I decided on what to do for both the other two project/ papers... So that is a step in the right direction.

This week will prolly be one of those no thrill no frills weeks everyone talks about from time to time, and by this week I mean the next two-two and half weeks.

But that is fine. Considering this semester hasn't been that hard at all. I mean aside from History & Systems, but that was to be expected. The only other class I should be concerned about is my Crim class because I haven't shown up in WHO KNOWS WHEN. I mean I don't really need to, but I also don't have the book because I am poor and I don't like to spend money on my education. HAHAHAHAHA....

Whatevs hopefully I will do fine. EEK. I had plans to do one of those extra credit papers but I never did. I rarely do extra credit even if it is stupid simple and could benefit me greatly. What is up with that...

So, because I don't really have the money or the time you won't be seeing me at any of these establishments for awhile:
-Sidetracks
-Corner
-Elbow Room
-Los Amigos *tear*
-Taco Bell (secret SHAME)
-Ugly Mug
-Anywhere

EXCEPT:
-Library (work/ place to write my paper because my laptop has been broken for awhile)
-Kingwood

Those are the two places I will be confining myself to (save for the times when I will be at class, which is also NEVER... seemingly.)

Ok. enough is enough. I should read for that paper!

Talk to you all.. never... *tear*

Papers... Yeah I need to get on that. I realize that in just a few days I need to bust out 3 projects. I don't think I have ever cared less in my life. UGH.

I hope I can rejuvenate my spirit for my next (and LAST) semester. And I also hope that I will care to go back to school after a years time. Don't get me wrong, I really want to get my Ph.D. and I really want to end work for the FBI/ or in a correctional facility. And where I could probably do that without a Ph.D. I don't want to. I just need something in my brain to change. So that I care again. OR for once. If I never did.

So, I have to start on my 10 pager. And do laundry... which I should switch now. I realize now that I can't finish my power point for Drug Use and Abuse because I brought everything but the information we collected. STUPID ME! I just don't think it is very good. Like it just seems to be informational (boring) and not really like a P.S.A. Well I guess I will be hanging out in the library tomorrow seeing as my laptop still is not working.

BUT hopefully I will be able to get that fixed for Christmas *fingers crossed*

Then for the last project. I could do anything. soooo I don't know what to do.

At least Psi Chi's last meeting was last Monday and I don't need to do anything for that till next semester.

And I am still waiting on some word about my research project... So I have time for that as well.

Ugh. I can't wait for this semester to be over. Seriously! I am so done.

BUT I am going to try and get motivated.

REBEL YELL! 

... switching my laundry... NOW!
 

Like really bad out there...

So now there are things I don't feel like doing, which can all be summed up as: LEAVING THE LIBRARY...

*le sigh*

Thank god for coats. Looks like I am going to have to bring out the big guns though, by that I mean My long winter coat. YAY!

Man the end of the semester is coming up fast. Which means I need to start looking for a job. boo. hahahahaha. And I  have papers/projects to do. Also boo. And then there is finals. Ew. hahahaha

AND I have to put in my request for graduation... PUKE! 

Reality is making me nauseous.

BUT on a happier note.

THANKSGIVING IS ALMOST HERE! 

And we only have TWO days of class! WOO HOO! Right?! RIGHT!?

Last Saturday (two days ago) the (new) Kingwood crew+ Jazz had a thanks giving dinner. It turned out really well. All the food was great, and Marcy and Sam made the beer pong table/ basement into a very classy environment. No joke.

Pictures soon, well prolly not. Lazy and I have no laptop right now, and that is where the program is. Unless Holly will let me install it on her computer, which is really now a hybrid of her's and sam's computer.

OK... Maybe I will go down to the paradox and see what they have in terms of soup...

BYE!

My shoes should be coming today!

Oh incredible excitment. Can't wait to go home.

But alas this will be a busy Monday:

Work (doing it now)
Class
Run home real quick
Psi Chi Meeting
Night Class
Corner?

Somewhere in there I have to find time to make food to eat.

It is cold outside, and when I came in to work I was hot (I assume from the heater) But now I am cold again. That sucks! 

I really would like next semester to be here. Well actually I would just like to be done. BUT my last semester should be interesting if anything. I will actually be able to look for jobs. Nothing would make me happier then to just work as a research assistant or some sort of low-level psych bitch work. And just study for the GRE all year. *le sigh*

And for all those who don't know yet. Ian has called things off. And I was sad for a bit. But after talking to some, and watching Arrested Development all Sunday I am ok about it now. Disappointed? Yes... But not angry and only maybe a little sad, which is stemming from the disappoinment. So that is that!

But seriously... MY SHOES! Oh how I can't wait to put you on!

And with that I am done.

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrr...

I am juggling to much as always. I should just cut off ties with the "real-world" and hang out in my room studying my calendar. At least I will remember what I am forgetting to do.

School is fine I guess, still not putting in the effort I should be. With two B's looming in one class I doubt I will 4. this semester... *sigh* why must I be my own enemy.

I don't know where to draw the line of good-friend and hopeless bro-mantic. I want everyone to be happy and ok, but it isn't possible. So I end up taking it really hard when my friends are all code-red and I am at a loss to know what to do. I know it isn't my job to parade around as their salvation, I just wish I could help. But then again I can't even take my own advice half the time, so why do expect you to? 

I am just upset is all. Upset without having anything to do about it.

When are we getting a break? 

I have tests coming up... weee... not. And I am finally getting to the finishing stages of my proposal. Psi Chi is taking up half my brain, but I lost that half somewhere so that is getting neglected. SCHOOL WORK SCHOOL WORK SCHOOL. And trying to make a larger social life fit in the nooks and crannies of my actual life.

Trying not to use this as a complaining tool but it isn't working.

But for the good: Atleast half of this semester is over. Although that means I have like 3 projects to start... 4? I should know the actual number... 3... I think.

AND the Halloween party is super close. I just need... a costume. Whooops. But I am excited for it. I really do like parties, if that is the only way I can see some of my friends then at least we have that. Small victories.

That is what I will try and cheer myself up with. Small victories...

OH! Almost done with the gambling study, that is at leat a moderatly sized victory. I can't wait to do analysis!!! and start working on Abstracts for APA and MPA (maybe if it isn't toooo late)

Alright, I feel better.

Man I have been doing well on tests without much effort. That is a bad bad thing, because I will get lazy and then study less till I get a C. So I am going to just try and be more productive.

Meeting with Dr. Saules today. And ofcourse I look like a college student. Some how I can never remember to try and look half-way decent when I have meetings with her. I am sure it doesn't matter to her that much. But honestly it makes me feel very unproffesional, or like a little kid. *le sigh*

Proposal talk, survey going over, and life-future goals. WEEEE!

Everyone should check out my facebook/ soon to be on myspace picture (when I stop being lazy) You can also find it on Marcy's facebook/ maybe myspace as well at some point.

Let us all just say that it is VERY festive.

Off to do Psi Chi THINGS!